The first Introductory workshop at Precision Nutitrition poses four questions for me to answer. They are:
- What is it I really want to achieve in going through P.N. Coaching? Answer here.
- Why haven’t you achieved your goals already? What’s blocking you? First Attempt at an answer here.
- What awesome things might happen to you if you did make progress?
- What specific things will show you you’re on track?
I want to take another quick stab at answering the second question. It has been bothering me a lot.
I still think the crux of the answer is, as Tony Robbins tells it, wrapped up in my self-identity. But that’s still a pretty big suitcase to unpack.
Lately, I came across this article by Nerd Fitness which was also thought provoking.
So, let’s start with the basics: the “these are just excuses and I know it but I still say them to myself” bullsh*t: But until I drag out these thoughts into the light of day, I can’t deal with them. So, here we are.
There are many activities I enjoy, but I don’t do them for one reason or another.
cycling–no bicycle, and man, does that seat hurt! I promise myself I will get a nice bike with a good seat when I am under 200 pounds. Then, I can bike to work.
swimming and water aerobics–I don’t have a bathing suit that fits, don’t want to spend money on a suit anyway, don’t have time to attend classes, don’t have the money.
any class at a fitness facility–I don’t have the money (even though my work place will cover off 20% of any pass I purchase at a city facility).
walking–it’s too cold. It’s too hot. It’s boring.
hiking–I’d have to drive to a good trail…and what’s the point of that? Besides, I don’t have time.
skiing (downhill) I’m too old!
skiing (cross country) I don’t have equipment, I am not fit enough.
Aerobics in the living room with a video. My husband, or son, or daughter are in there and I don’t want to disturb them. I’m getting bored with the same old, same old. My ankle hurts.
Body weight exercises– I am a wimp! And, see “other people live here, too” excuse, above.
Yoga–I want to be stronger and more fit before I start up again. It hurt so much. And it is expensive.
“Deeper” reasons/thoughts which keep me stuck:
I am a wuss. I don’t like pain. I don’t like exerting effort.
Nobody cares. This is a good thing, really. It means my family loves me just as I am and respects my autonomy. But it also means there’s nobody’s love or pride to earn (and as a child of divorce, that motivates me) except my own…and that doesn’t count. (This is also one of the reasons I think coaching will be helpful to me as I will want to “please the coach.” Wanting to please the teacher got me a long, long way through school!)
My job is so physically demanding it wipes me right out. Ironically, this could be re-written as a reason to get into shape, like so: My job is so physically demanding I need to be physically fit to cope with it.
I can go like gangbusters for a while: and then the bottom falls out. I get bored, I lose touch with the pain and discomfort that motivated me and I begin to slack off. First the exercise goes–and then that “eat like a horse” switch flips and in no time I am eating out of control and gaining weight rapidly. I actually want to go through this phase–or get to the cusp of the switch flipping so I can work through this terrifying force of nature with my coach.
I am scared of change, generally. I am scared of this change specifically because I don’t know what is going to happen with my relationships with my family and my husband.
I am impatient, as any reader of any of my blogs knows. I lack resilience. I give up when the going gets tough–or even slows down! I need constant feedback things are going in the right direction.
I use food to handle my emotions. In fact, right now, there’s a tremendous urge to get up and make a pan of brownies and just eat them all by myself. Right now.
I can’t figure out when to exercise. I live with other people. The best time –for them– is in the morning, I suppose. The best time –for work– is before I go. (It is 100% guaranteed I’m always too tired afterwards, even when it is just a short shift.) The best time –for me–is–and always has been– about 3 to 4 pm. Just before supper. I have lots of energy–and lot of adrenaline built up from the day I just love to work off.
So, in short, I have a few challenges in picking out what activities to do, I am unsure how to make exercise a habit, I have some mental health issues, inadequate skills for coping with uncomfortable emotions, lack of support and a demanding job.
But. as the nerd fitness article made clear, those are all issues someone has faced…and overcome.